Poem (5) - Not understanding

I was getting a little frustraited as to why I am always getting injured.

~Not understanding~

I sit here suffering in pain
Not understanding the gain
Why is it leaving me lame
Is there a purpose to this shame?

The frustration is binding
As nothing seems to be aligning
Why the pain keeps finding
My body still denying

The problem is not clear
But the evidence is near
The doctors say no fear
As my face shows the tears

Motrin sending me to sleep
Keeping me d r u g ged up deep
Why isn't that a treat
To have nothing to keep

As my brain still flutters
And my mind begins to stutter
On my lips I find mutters
Of incoherent blubber

My hands reaching up to air
Trying to find You there
Eyes still locked in a stare
Searching to become aware

Wanting Your plan to be shown
Wishing that I could really know
How come the thoughts are being blown
And seeming to be thrown

God, I'm stuggling with this
Why do I feel like hit-and-miss
Keep my eyes from the mist
Keep my hands from forming fists

I want to understand